i've had a lot of time to think lately. i am a very private person, although right now it doesn't feel that way. a little less than two weeks ago i had a routine medical procedure. unfortunately for me, routine turned into complications, and i ended up spending a week in the hospital and another week at home recovering. i struggled really hard over whether to tell my friends. there were six people that I chose to share this information with. i have to say, it was probably one of the saddest, loneliest weeks of my life laying in a hospital bed, alone. but 2 weeks prior, on facebook, I chose to share what I thought was a funny scenario about a crazy week I was having. with that, i shared that i was having car trouble's. i was quickly reminded that my car troubles were in hawaii. it got me wondering, because I live on a beautiful, tropical island, am i not allowed to be sad? are my problems not real problems because I live in hawaii? i'm sure people are just joking, but it doesn't always feel that way. we all have our shit, and it has a way of hitting pretty heavy at the most inopportune times. i try not to rub my life in anyone's face, so if it ever feels that way, i do hope the people that I care about would let me know. but am I not allowed to have a great life? I MADE THIS LIFE HAPPEN, NO ONE ELSE DID IT. i can promise you that. i sacrificed a whole hell of a lot to get here. my relationships with friends and family were the biggest sacrifice, but I had to, to save my own life. and although the social media walls are very often covered in a veil of filters and smokey lenses, underneath, there's a real person, with real feelings. i read something on someone else's Instagram post yesterday and I loved it. She said, "life unfolds in seasons and no one is blooming all of the time!" #luckywelivehawaii #andnotashamed #thisismyvieweveryday #ilovemylife
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instantlychristi : #home #family #proud #haiku
kateymary : Aw😟So sorry you're having to go through all of that alone...Please me know if you need anything, I'm happy to help and we live so close!! As for people thinking that living in Hawaii is all puppy dogs and icecream, HA!!! Most people have absolutely have NO idea how hard it can be to live out here!! It is not a permanent vacation at all (I it wish). We actually work really hard to be able to live out here, it's expensive, and it's not easy to be so far removed from friends/family. We have every right to have emotional days! XOXO
roomfortuesdayblog : Fab!
sidewalkflower : Christi, I had no idea. I am so sorry. I hope you are feeling much better and recovering. You are beautiful and strong and you of course should have a great life! Thinking about you, love you, and prayers going your way in your recovery.
instantlychristi : @kateymary thank you!! We really do need to figure out how close we live. ;)
instantlychristi : @sidewalkflower thanks friend. I sent Angie a message and asked her to let you all know. Perhaps no I know why I didn't hear from anyone. I thought it was a little odd and it definitely made me sad. But it's all in the past now. I'm on the mend and healing well. I sure do miss you though.
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A little early birthday gift. I went in for Chuck's and came out with these. You can't really see it but they are irridescent under the black mesh. I'm in looove. #nike #irridescent #almostlikeglitter #feelingmyself #lol #nikeairzoompegasus32flash #earlybirthday #birthdaymonth #45 #fortyfive #andnotashamed #runningshoes #notevengonnarun #nikerunning #zoom #airzoompegasus32
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binzerbunny : SHOE ENVY.
j_v_jiron : NiceπŸ‘πŸΌ
stilettos_and_a_suitcase : Those are awesome!!
starfishandcoffee44 : @gnatspan Thanks!
starfishandcoffee44 : @binzerbunny DSW!
starfishandcoffee44 : @j_v_jiron Thanks!
starfishandcoffee44 : @stilettos_and_a_suitcase They are even better in person! The iridescence really pops depending on the light.
stilettos_and_a_suitcase : That's awesome!!!
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That moment when you realize that most of the Christmas gifts you've received are Frozen related. Yes, that's a Frozen watch. And yes, I will wear it. 😎 #frozenobsessed #andnotashamed β„οΈπŸ’™
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drembrypartyof4 : 😍
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daneephermsin : #belieber #andnotashamed
c_jaded44 : What cameraaa
hairdesignbytess : Me tooooo #belieber 😩
belldoesitwell : You look sooo pweety here!!😍
daneephermsin : @belldoesitwell hahahahah fu
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Just saw Kris Jenner and Kanye!! #imobsessed #andnotashamed
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tiffany.mason : No way!!!!
jessdworkin : Do you have a Disney pass?? If so let's go together some time!
anjeliwhat : Aw don't forget about Corey
sumherrera : Swear! @kc_holla @mcompeaniv
mcompeaniv : Nooo
brittanypedersen : Omg im so jealous!!!
courtneyle5 : Omg shut up!!!!
larissa_l_mills : @lindyyamara
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A man says a lot of things in summer, that he does not mean anymore in winter. #whitehair
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jawed.sabet : Zo dat past mooi bij mijn bioπŸ™ƒ!
mar.zias : @jawed.sabet hahahahahahah dus zo ben jij hmmm πŸ˜πŸ€”
jawed.sabet : Zo ben ik idd denk ik.
officialmisssohaila : 😍😍😍
sacheenlittlefeather : @jawed.sabet zo mag je niet zijn πŸ€” dat je het even weeeeet 😠 #notinmyfam
jawed.sabet : @sacheenlittlefeather haha zal er aan werken.
mar.zias : @jawed.sabet @sacheenlittlefeather ik hou van de hele fam :) cuties ❀️
jiennnie : πŸ‘Œ
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Tacky sweaters and bar crawling πŸŽ„β˜ƒβ„οΈ #NocturnalNurses #Funtimes #AndNotAshamed #dallasnightlife #tackysweaters #conjoinedtackysweaters #MyFriendsAintReal
funtimes - myfriendsaintreal - conjoinedtackysweaters - dallasnightlife - tackysweaters - andnotashamed - nocturnalnurses -
paige.ashley.golden : I need that sweater where did you get it?!
_simplyreke_ : @paige.ashley.golden target find
amazingjaz07 : Love the sweaters 😍 #sweaterswag
dfwsmilelabs : πŸ‘ πŸ‘
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Mirrored sunnies. Great lighting. Red lips. #WillHaveUFeelingYaSelf #AndNotAshamed πŸ’‹πŸ’ƒπŸ½
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thegrindneversleeps : We see ya @_simplyreke_ 🌷😍
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Such a big helper πŸ˜‰ 🎁#notsantaslittlehelper #rescuedpetsofinstagram
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marylyn107 : #bmupc
jon.ringjr : #crazydoglady
marylyn107 : #andnotashamed @jon.ringjr
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..... There's absolutely nothing wrong with being a 'copycat'... As long as your copying the right cat 😻 πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚... @jadorefashion thanks ma'am 😘... #godsdaughter #nothingputsmedown #fulloffaith #nospaceforfear #Bornagain #andnotashamed #weddingguest #fashionforchurch #leopardprints #floral
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lynnpopes : @ezinneokwulehie lol @ copy the right cat πŸ˜‚. Simply gorgeous. & Stella @jadorefashion thanks for liking our picture. U an an inspiration everyday, everytime. If u know how many times we go thru ur page, ur pictures should have faded by now 😁.
ezinneokwulehie : @bubu_lee_ Biko lota nu nwannem πŸ˜€ @lynnpopes πŸ˜‚ πŸ˜‚ faded pictures... I so concur... Thank you again ma'am... @jadorefashion
ezinneokwulehie : @lynnpopes my every reliable efficient partner in good πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ not crime biko... Thanks darling 😘😘
rondut : I loveeee your dresss, stunning!!! May i know what size you're wearing? I want that dresss 😍😍😍
rondut : @ezinneokwulehie
ezinneokwulehie : @rondut thanks a lot 😘😘😘... It's a size 12
ojiugo_mark : Doc I missed you.u see that's y am always copying u
ezinneokwulehie : @ojiugo_mark I miss you too dear. 😘😘. Better stop by... With our baby
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Thx a lot <3 Amazing photographer: πŸ“· #shooting #photography #blackwhite #naked #andnotashamed ;) #sensual
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thomasherbersfotografie : No reason to be ashamed. You look stunning! Great work of both of you!
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πŸ˜©πŸ˜‚ when those hand grenades in NOLA kicked in. #TwoLeftFeet #HappyFeet #AndNotAshamed #ShakeItOff #TSwift #NOLA #MyFriendsAintReal #GoodTimes πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜©πŸ˜© #hiddenfootage
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_simplyreke_ : @high_statiz @trieujules πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚
high_statiz : T.Swift!!!! πŸ˜‘πŸ˜‚πŸ˜©
_simplyreke_ : @high_statiz haterrrr πŸ˜‚
trieujules : @_simplyreke_ @high_statiz I can't...... Not T.Swift though..... That's not her name.. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚
_simplyreke_ : @trieujules πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ hater!
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Self confidence is the best outfit, rock it and own it. #BeProud #andnotashamed #BelieveInYourSelf #LeydaVelarde
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jo_kaleidosculpt : Outstanding one!
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Happy Birthday Momma, you're still 23 (as always). There's not enough words I could use to thank you for everything you've done for me throughout my 21 years of being your son, but I know one thing for sure I'm defiantly blessed to be your son. happy birthday momma bear, hope it's the best day ever cause you deserve it. and sorry but I couldn't resist sharing this little slice of your amazing dancing skills 😘 #mommasboy #andnotashamed
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almost_somebody : God I miss that woman. HAPPY BDAY ERICS MOMMA
_madefranco_ : Cute room πŸ˜†πŸ˜‰
ereese294 : sister recorded the video, I just posted it lol @_madefranco_
_madefranco_ : Lol I'm just kidding 😌 hope all is well!
ccoie : Omg πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚Thank you for the good laugh! That was the sweetest thing ever ❀️You will always be my baby boy no matter how old you get since I'm staying 23 forever! Love you more than words can say😘😘
jcwilliams141 : Eric, I'm soooooo sorry that your mom is such a retard!!!! πŸŽ‚πŸŽ‚πŸŽ‚
sarahlynnnn16 : This is the best thing ever!! πŸ˜‚
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What better way to say #arrivederci to Milano than Pizza Pasta and some live jazz @ La Salumeria Della Musica. Had a fantastic evening! Loved it! Not so Italian with a caipirinha but sue me😜 #cliche #andnotashamed #byemilan #untilnexttime #allthefood #theysayitswinter #butirefuse #imbringingsummerback #likeitornot #itsalllove
likeitornot - allthefood - theysayitswinter - untilnexttime - arrivederci - cliche - itsalllove - byemilan - imbringingsummerback - butirefuse - andnotashamed -
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Those who know me understand? On this day 19years ago the SPICE album was released and my life was never the same. #throwbackthursday #spicegirls
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adonawa28 : Explorers CampπŸ˜‚
therealmsmarty : I could watch their movie daily. Know it word for wordπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ we are sooooo cousins!
devauneratteray : @therealmsmarty haha!!! Yup we are so cousins lol. I know the movie word for word also. #AndNotAshamed. Haha.
_franimal : #spiceupyourlife @devauneratteray : Your instagram is lovely! You definitely need to check my insta πŸ”₯
adonawa28 - lekrikri - houes67 - douglasbloodline -
#imisstheseshoes #theygottheiruse and #servedmewell #iminthecomfortyears #andnotashamed #istillownhotheels #thepracticalones #preservingmysexyback
iminthecomfortyears - thepracticalones - servedmewell - theygottheiruse - preservingmysexyback - imisstheseshoes - istillownhotheels - andnotashamed -
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πŸπŸ‚πŸŽƒπŸπŸ‚πŸŽƒπŸπŸ‚πŸŽƒπŸπŸ‚πŸŽƒ #basicwhitegirl #andnotashamed
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#RedRedWine #MakeMeFeelSoFine #KeepMeRockingAllOfTheTime #TurningIntoMyMother #AndNotAshamed 😊
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tattoo_tim : πŸ”₯
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Was a lit time at the party πŸ”₯#kyrasgrandpaturns75
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grandma_gent : Hope you had a fun weekend. Heard your friend was in town.
benolsn : Oh grandma gent 😌
sarahrinsky : tbh did THE ben kennedy just like my photo!!! ah this pic is cute. you're so funny & you look exactly like Derek from life with Derek which is sick. you're basically my bestfriend and you're the smarter at person I know. and you wear your kobes nicely cause you the real map
sarahrinsky : mvp***
benkennedy_ : @sarahrinsky I feel so blessed to have your Kobe approval πŸ™πŸΌπŸ™πŸΌ and ur like my bestie too besides Carson #7cookies #andnotashamed
sarahrinsky : 😊😊❀️❀️ we must add carson to the group chat @benkennedy_
benkennedy_ : @sarahrinsky he'd send us pics of his victims
sarahrinsky : LOL that's too much πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ @benkennedy_
iam_kjprince - snrsma_13 - mg_sick_ms3 - camkern5 -
πŸ‘Œ tell myself this all the time. #imcrazy #andnotashamed
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About a week ago @claytonjennings1 was in Johannesburg and he preached at the church I go to. This guy is phenomenal, he is so driven and motivated to make this world a better place. Now I know most people don't like these kinds of posts and that's okay, but I'm Christian and by hearing someone so passionate about something is beautiful, I can only hope to one day do the things he's doing. He is such an inspiration. Cannot wait for him to come back to South Africa. Check out his YouTube video's, his spoken words are powerful ✊ #Christian #AndNotAshamed #ClaytonJennings #Revival #Inspiration #Christ #JeausJesusJesus #Motivation #TellTheWorld #Evangelist
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djgali : πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘
raeesah_lameez_xo : I was there tooo😒😒😒 I Love Him😍 I went for the morning and evening service ❀
lia_perumal : @raeesah_lameez_xo I was there for the morning one, I wish I could have met him but I couldn't make it to the evening one 😒 can't wait for him to come back. He's amazing❀
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Oh the joys of having to set up a new tumblr... Yes it's the fourth one. Yes you may say I'm addicted. Anyway if you want to follow me during my year in London, drop by at ! #shamelessselfpromotion #crazytumblrlady #andnotashamed (Also sorry for my crappy reflection)
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Friday night in with this model cat as I practice for tomorrow and do a whole buncha other shit I didn't get done this week Lmaooo. Happy Friday, y'all! 😘 #modelcat #fancyfeastmodel #leona #leeleecat #catlady #fridaynightin #givefaceboo #catsofig #whyisshesoelegant #prettycat #catlady #andnotashamed #lol #okbye
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slfive : Lmaooo this reminds me of the time smiles said I was "jot" when he meant to say hot hahahaha #whenautocorrecthappens
_markusvaughn : Lol look at that expression
slfive : @_markusvaughn Lmaooo she's a damn New York fashion week model on the low haha
_markusvaughn : LOL
1soulsticeladye : She's so gorgeous!! And such a diva!! Lol! Too cute...
slfive : @1soulsticeladye haha aww thank you! And yes girl she's a damn diva and a scaredy cat (pardon the pun) haha she runs away from everything smh
helenbackwards : She looks soooo grown
slfive : @helenbackwards :) my Lee Lee has grown a bunch but she's still my little baby haha #thingscatmomssay
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❀ from @vintagelifemag on Facebook #justwingingit #andnotashamed #wingedliner #pinup #pinupdoll #pinupgirl #dutchpinup #dutch #modernpinup #retro #vintage #rockabella #rockabilly #pinupstyle #retrostyle #vintagestyle #forties #fifties
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siggourney : πŸ™ŒπŸ»
_mesoclassy_ : @prettygodzilla
starsantiquemarket : 🌟 🌟 🌟 🌟 🌟
guacnessmonster : @fettwhitebunny @janeynoel @i_am_a_total_nerd
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#ifuckingbelieve #unicorns #magic #im30 #andnotashamed
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πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ’―πŸ˜‚πŸ’πŸΌ. That Virgo life... Hey nothing wrong with having standards! What sucks is when you think you may have found someone to fit the mold & they live no where near so you don't even try/gave up because it's depressing. I've had one date in an entire year because the idea of dating randomly sounds terrible to me TBH and these "men" out here truly have nothing worthwhile to offer. Especially if you value yourself or your time at all. Friends have shown me the Tinder profiles... βœ‹πŸΌπŸ˜³πŸ˜§πŸ™…πŸΌ Fuck that. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚. I'd rather be alone than sacrifice myself to either BS or random hook-ups. Chemistry cannot be forced. You just know when you know. #LOL #LMAO #singlelife #singleAF #datingisoverratednowadays #noquality #pickyAF #andnotashamed #virgolife #virgoissues
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traitsofvirgos : It really sucks tho, I thought I'd found the one...not the case!! A Virgo and a gemini, that was a disaster waiting to happen lol. Cheers to high standards and livin it up for ourselves 🍸
roxiemorrow : What's up with Tinder? My daughter has mentioned it, should I be worried? I don't like shit like that anyway!!!
imjustthegirl_nextdoor : @traitsofvirgos yeah, that does suck. I've been fooled once before too πŸ˜”. Which I think makes it even harder for us because usually we're a pretty good judge of character! But hey, cheers to us because yes high standards & independence are good things! πŸ˜‰πŸ˜„πŸΈπŸΈ
imjustthegirl_nextdoor : @roxiemorrow well I guess it kind of depends who you talk to. Really I think it tends to be more of a "hook up" site... But I'm sure a number of people are actually using it to hang out and try to date people, I've just seen some really really STRANGE profiles.... I imagine it's a lot like many free dating sites. I tried those many many years ago and there are definitely some mentally unstable people, but that's life in general anyways lol. I'm just old skool. I'm sure she has a good head on her shoulders and will be able to differentiate.
miss_laura_ann_85 : @lwd_428 πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ This reminded me of our conversation the other day!!
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August 24, 2015 | day 236- I'm thankful for Sarah who drove tonight. But I'm also thankful I love her and loved going to FHE, and then to harass @jessivirix at work, and then picking out her new phone case. And I love that she pretend posed for a picture while I took this picture of hot guys at the Lego store in downtown Disney. They were super tall and super handsome and smelled really good too. Y'welcome everyone! #tfc365thankfuldays #ellieindisney #icalltheoneinthewhiteshirt #creeperstatus #andnotashamed
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sia_miko : Hi so um, I want the one in the gray.....yeah, don't get scaredπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚They're beautiful 😍😍 wehπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚
oh_sweet_ti : 😎
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This photo is the absolute best. #iamchildish #andnotashamed #sloth #business #universe
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lil_flower21 : IS THIS THE PICTURE?! πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ @aubreyfruit
aubreyfruit : @lil_flower21 YESSSS THIS IS THE PICTURE. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚
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#bedtime #selfie #selfiestick #andnotashamed #loveourselfiestick #bffs #goodnight @sarah_doheny
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calslawter - _mikiojm - buzz_218 - g8richh -
Guess I was destined to become one of those girls who post too many pictures of their dog. #crazydoglady #andnotashamed
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I am soooo ready! #pitchperfect2 #acaawesome #acabelieveit #imobsessed #andnotashamed
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jeshavefaith - babeariel - thatoneguy0184 - mz_hambone -
Day 5: a gift. Well idk about anyone else but the best gift I've ever gotten was definitely the gift of salvation. Thank you Jesus!! #JesusIsmybestfriend #saved #andnotashamed
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aliyamofo : #embracingbeauty
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